A friend asked if I had written a blog post recently. I know that I had not written for a long time, so I looked up this good old blog, and realized that I haven't written in almost 9 months. Not a bad thing, maybe a little surprising.
But I know why I had not written anything for months and months. Overall, this blog had the overarching theme of thinking positively, even when things may not be going your way. To be happy with what you have, and conscious of all the blessings in your life. Sometimes, how to get out of a funk or begin to think positively again.
The main reason I had the blog was for personal reasons, since with chemistry grad school, there are a lot of bad days, but some good days sprinkled in. It takes a lot of perseverance to get thru it, and go thru all the bad days with a smile on your face. This was my blank canvas, my emotional sounding board. But now I realize that I don't really need it. There's also the fact that there are only so many ways to help yourself to be happy before you just starting repeating everything over and over again.
So: what can you do whenever you reached your goal and are overall pretty dang happy with how things are going? You recreate and change your path.
So instead of positive thinking and happiness, I'm switching tunes and writing about something that gives me an unending source of joy: travel.
My thought behind the "new" and "improved" blog is to write about my experiences with travel, places I've been, places I'm going, and places I want to go. And, if anyone wants to "guest blog" about a place, they're more than welcome to.
So, overall, keep your head up, and find something you love to do. Once you do, hold on to it. Whether it's travel, shopping, cooking, exercising, collecting, etc., find what you love and do it. Life's too short not to.
Goodbye, The Power of Positive Thinking. Hello, This Looks Like a Good Place to Lose/Find Myself.
Thursday, July 23, 2015
Tuesday, November 4, 2014
Enjoy the ride.
It's November, and I have not written a blog post in about 3 months. These past few months have been rather odd for me. I've been so very happy in most aspects of my life, but for some reason I reached a "post third year slump" this summer and going into my fourth year at school. Chemistry was still interesting to me, but I couldn't stand to be doing the work I was doing. I didn't want to spend any time in lab. When I was in lab, I was not extremely motivated or efficient, and then when I was home, I would feel guilty about not being in lab. It was a strange feeling that somewhat permeated into other parts of my life, making me somewhat unhappy in the rest of my life when I had nothing to make me feel that way.
Knowing myself, being somewhat unhappy is a huge deal. I try to see the positive in every situation, every event, every decision... and I couldn't do that. I couldn't see an end to grad school, I couldn't visualize myself getting to that moment in time. So: I tucked myself away and mulled on those feelings, mostly alone, but with the help of some people as well. Those who understood the hardships of scientific research and academia, as well as those on the outside who could give a different perspective.
And guess what? It took about 3 months, but I'm back. I'm motivated. I'm interested in my projects that I've started and am excited to hopefully wrap up my main project in the next 4-6 months. I'm excited to work to getting publishable data... not just idly sit in lab and hope that things work out. I mean actively working towards my goals.
I've been trying to eat healthy and get a good workout in 3-5x a week, just to keep up energy and not be lethargic (coffee helps too). I've been trying to really think of what is good in my life, and what I am thankful for. I've been visualizing how to finish projects, and how to manage my stress. I am seeing results in that I feel rejuvenated again to do what I came to UC to do.
I know that I'm not the only one who goes through waves of doubt, sadness, regret, aka all the sad feels. Sometimes we don't know how to get out of those times. A fb friend posted this article (13 Ways to Successfully Move Through Difficult Transitions) and it really resonated with me. If you're also not really feeling entirely like yourself, see if some of these can help.
Just remember that life is a journey, and we should be enjoying the ride, no matter what detours come along the way.
I hope everyone had a wonderful fall... I think it's getting ready to be winter soon. Enjoy the month of November, and remember all the good you have in your life. Be thankful for it. :)
Knowing myself, being somewhat unhappy is a huge deal. I try to see the positive in every situation, every event, every decision... and I couldn't do that. I couldn't see an end to grad school, I couldn't visualize myself getting to that moment in time. So: I tucked myself away and mulled on those feelings, mostly alone, but with the help of some people as well. Those who understood the hardships of scientific research and academia, as well as those on the outside who could give a different perspective.
And guess what? It took about 3 months, but I'm back. I'm motivated. I'm interested in my projects that I've started and am excited to hopefully wrap up my main project in the next 4-6 months. I'm excited to work to getting publishable data... not just idly sit in lab and hope that things work out. I mean actively working towards my goals.
I've been trying to eat healthy and get a good workout in 3-5x a week, just to keep up energy and not be lethargic (coffee helps too). I've been trying to really think of what is good in my life, and what I am thankful for. I've been visualizing how to finish projects, and how to manage my stress. I am seeing results in that I feel rejuvenated again to do what I came to UC to do.
I know that I'm not the only one who goes through waves of doubt, sadness, regret, aka all the sad feels. Sometimes we don't know how to get out of those times. A fb friend posted this article (13 Ways to Successfully Move Through Difficult Transitions) and it really resonated with me. If you're also not really feeling entirely like yourself, see if some of these can help.
Just remember that life is a journey, and we should be enjoying the ride, no matter what detours come along the way.
I hope everyone had a wonderful fall... I think it's getting ready to be winter soon. Enjoy the month of November, and remember all the good you have in your life. Be thankful for it. :)
Friday, July 18, 2014
... they see happiness as a journey...
Sorry, everyone. It's been a while, I've been busy (always an easy excuse when it comes to not blogging), things have been changing for the better, and I am pretty happy overall. I feel like I tend to write in this blog when I need a source or inspiration to go find happiness or chase after something that will, for the moment, make me content. So forgive me for not keeping up with this... it's just another thing that has fallen to the wayside that is life.
Funny enough, I don't need to find an inspiration for happiness. I'm still very happy, but that doesn't mean that I should stop writing. So: here goes.
Hi, again. It's been a while. While I'm in lab rotovapping off solvent or waiting an hour to add a reagent in to my reaction, I browse the interwebs and read HuffPost, Buzzfeed, theChive... really anything that my friends post or that I find interesting on said previous post, I'll look at. You name it, I'll skim it to see if it's "worth my time to purse longer"... some articles are, some are not.
I found one today that is really interesting to me: 7 Ways to Tell If You're A Truly Humble Person. Now. Most of the time, you think of other people being humble, but it's almost contradictory if you consider yourself humble. It's not humility if you think it so. So, how can you tell if you're humble unless someone else tells you so?
So, looking at the 7 ways, you really have to dig deep and see whether or not you're truthfully doing these, or if you just say you are to make yourself feel better. The one that really stuck out to me is way #4: They see happiness as a journey. Huh... that's mostly what I write about, finding that happiness, even for just a moment. But happiness as a journey? That's a tough thing for almost anyone to do. But I do like the thought behind this: "... we tend to achieve happiness more when we're not actually pursuing it." How often has that rang true? The more you try to find happiness, and almost force it to happen, the less likely you will actually be happy. But if you just live life, sometimes happiness just sort of happens.
... but then you read articles about "9 ways to make yourself a happier, healthier person" or something else to that extend. Where people are telling you things to do to make yourself happy and healthy. That's great, some people need some guidance when it comes to finding things to make them happy. But at the end of the day, just do what makes you happy. That's how you find happiness, is to just do what makes you happy.
If you're having trouble finding what makes you happy, then try new things, go out of your comfort zone for a while. Meet new people or revisit with old ones. Learn to cook, or try a new exercise class or routine. Lay on the grass and stare at the clouds. Take a nap in the sun. Go swimming or canoeing. Whatever it is you want to do, go do it! Or, look at articles that others write, and see if you can borrow some of their ideas. Some of the best inspiration comes from others.
Regardless, everyone have a wonderful weekend. I'm leaving school before the rain hits, but I'm pretty sure I'll be back this weekend in the lab. Gotta love bursts of motivation, especially when it comes to working more.
Funny enough, I don't need to find an inspiration for happiness. I'm still very happy, but that doesn't mean that I should stop writing. So: here goes.
Hi, again. It's been a while. While I'm in lab rotovapping off solvent or waiting an hour to add a reagent in to my reaction, I browse the interwebs and read HuffPost, Buzzfeed, theChive... really anything that my friends post or that I find interesting on said previous post, I'll look at. You name it, I'll skim it to see if it's "worth my time to purse longer"... some articles are, some are not.
I found one today that is really interesting to me: 7 Ways to Tell If You're A Truly Humble Person. Now. Most of the time, you think of other people being humble, but it's almost contradictory if you consider yourself humble. It's not humility if you think it so. So, how can you tell if you're humble unless someone else tells you so?
So, looking at the 7 ways, you really have to dig deep and see whether or not you're truthfully doing these, or if you just say you are to make yourself feel better. The one that really stuck out to me is way #4: They see happiness as a journey. Huh... that's mostly what I write about, finding that happiness, even for just a moment. But happiness as a journey? That's a tough thing for almost anyone to do. But I do like the thought behind this: "... we tend to achieve happiness more when we're not actually pursuing it." How often has that rang true? The more you try to find happiness, and almost force it to happen, the less likely you will actually be happy. But if you just live life, sometimes happiness just sort of happens.
... but then you read articles about "9 ways to make yourself a happier, healthier person" or something else to that extend. Where people are telling you things to do to make yourself happy and healthy. That's great, some people need some guidance when it comes to finding things to make them happy. But at the end of the day, just do what makes you happy. That's how you find happiness, is to just do what makes you happy.
If you're having trouble finding what makes you happy, then try new things, go out of your comfort zone for a while. Meet new people or revisit with old ones. Learn to cook, or try a new exercise class or routine. Lay on the grass and stare at the clouds. Take a nap in the sun. Go swimming or canoeing. Whatever it is you want to do, go do it! Or, look at articles that others write, and see if you can borrow some of their ideas. Some of the best inspiration comes from others.
Regardless, everyone have a wonderful weekend. I'm leaving school before the rain hits, but I'm pretty sure I'll be back this weekend in the lab. Gotta love bursts of motivation, especially when it comes to working more.
Thursday, May 29, 2014
Why you gotta be so rude? Don't you know I'm human too?
I was going to write about the tragedy at UCSB, the #YesAllWomen tweets, and something in remembrance of Brogan Dulle, a 3rd year student at UC who was missing for a week before being found dead near his apartment. I was going to write about how cruel this world is, for taking away innocent lives that didn't deserve their fate. I was going to write about how the world needs to change its view on rape culture. I was going to write about the sadness the Cincinnati community feels with the loss of Brogan, even though we had never crossed paths.
Instead. I'm going to write about appreciating all the good that we have in our lives. It's awful that terrible events are the things that remind us of what is important, what is good, and really what a bad day looks like. But that's just life.
I know for myself, my family and friends are most important to me. They keep me going through everyday events. I am a very lucky girl to not have lost any person that I am close to, and I need to remember that. I don't always stay in touch with friends and family like I should, and this is a good reminder that I should do so. Tell the people I love just that, that I care for them and wish nothing but the best for them.
My education is extremely important as well, and as much as I bitch and complain about having to do work, so many people don't even get the opportunity to receive an education, or get to the point where I am. And that in itself is an amazing feat, but there is so much more to accomplish. I can't wait to see what happens next.
I appreciate every opportunity that has come my way, and I appreciate all the support in my choices. I know that it's not easy to be happy on a consistent basis, but I really have been happy for a long time now. It's so easy to take that for granted, and with these reminders recently, I know I will continue to work hard to stay happy, and to also help others find happiness through the day.
Even though I didn't know the Dulle family, or the people who suffered in California, my thoughts and prayers go out to them during this challenging and trying time.
Who do you appreciate? What things make you happy, and how can you show that you are grateful? When facing adversity, how do you rise above it?
Find something, small or big, that you are thankful for, and show your appreciation. Pay it forward. We are all human after all, let's treat each other that way.
Instead. I'm going to write about appreciating all the good that we have in our lives. It's awful that terrible events are the things that remind us of what is important, what is good, and really what a bad day looks like. But that's just life.
I know for myself, my family and friends are most important to me. They keep me going through everyday events. I am a very lucky girl to not have lost any person that I am close to, and I need to remember that. I don't always stay in touch with friends and family like I should, and this is a good reminder that I should do so. Tell the people I love just that, that I care for them and wish nothing but the best for them.
My education is extremely important as well, and as much as I bitch and complain about having to do work, so many people don't even get the opportunity to receive an education, or get to the point where I am. And that in itself is an amazing feat, but there is so much more to accomplish. I can't wait to see what happens next.
I appreciate every opportunity that has come my way, and I appreciate all the support in my choices. I know that it's not easy to be happy on a consistent basis, but I really have been happy for a long time now. It's so easy to take that for granted, and with these reminders recently, I know I will continue to work hard to stay happy, and to also help others find happiness through the day.
Even though I didn't know the Dulle family, or the people who suffered in California, my thoughts and prayers go out to them during this challenging and trying time.
Who do you appreciate? What things make you happy, and how can you show that you are grateful? When facing adversity, how do you rise above it?
Find something, small or big, that you are thankful for, and show your appreciation. Pay it forward. We are all human after all, let's treat each other that way.
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
I swear when I grow up, I won't just buy you a rose, I'll buy you the flower shop and you will never be lonely.
Mood music: Fun. - The Gambler
It's been an interesting couple of weeks, to say the least. But I'm alive, and for that, I am thankful.
The 100 Happy Days challenge is still going strong, on day 44 today. I actually thought about quitting it, but I do like a challenge. I'm glad I stuck with it, there is always a silver lining in everything, even with sadness.
This past weekend, I was able to see one of my favorite friends, Emily. The last time I saw her was 2010, right before I graduated from Centre... it's crazy to think about. She moved out to Arizona for a few years to get her Masters degree in chemistry before moving back to Atlanta to work towards a Doctorate in chemistry as well. Such a smarty pants, no wonder we're friends :) It was so wonderful to spend even a short time with her... felt like we just saw each other the day before. Friendships like that are rare and a beautiful thing; if you have one like that, keep a strong hold on it. You don't find many people that you connect with on that kind of level.
The world is always spinning, things are always changing, people come in and out of lives... while it is a bit stressful at times, that's what makes the world a wonderful place. You really never know what will happen. All we can do to keep happy is to find reason and purpose in every event, every decision, everything. Things have a funny way of working themselves out when you're least expecting it. Be patient, think things thru. Whatever happens, you know that you have people that love you regardless. Make sure you let those people know you appreciate them. The world is too big to try to conquer on your own.
May is a busy month, not just for me either, but for most people I think. I hope I can take my own advice: get outside, enjoy the day. Go do something that makes you happy. Get fro yo, and take the time to sit on a bench and eat it. Leisurely stroll through a park, or a cool place in town. People watch. Make your favorite food. Life can too easily pass us by. Try to remember to take a break once in a while.
I want everyone to feel happiness, even if for a moment today. I think we all deserve it.
It's been an interesting couple of weeks, to say the least. But I'm alive, and for that, I am thankful.
The 100 Happy Days challenge is still going strong, on day 44 today. I actually thought about quitting it, but I do like a challenge. I'm glad I stuck with it, there is always a silver lining in everything, even with sadness.
This past weekend, I was able to see one of my favorite friends, Emily. The last time I saw her was 2010, right before I graduated from Centre... it's crazy to think about. She moved out to Arizona for a few years to get her Masters degree in chemistry before moving back to Atlanta to work towards a Doctorate in chemistry as well. Such a smarty pants, no wonder we're friends :) It was so wonderful to spend even a short time with her... felt like we just saw each other the day before. Friendships like that are rare and a beautiful thing; if you have one like that, keep a strong hold on it. You don't find many people that you connect with on that kind of level.
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| Annie, Emily and me at The Devil Makes Three |
The world is always spinning, things are always changing, people come in and out of lives... while it is a bit stressful at times, that's what makes the world a wonderful place. You really never know what will happen. All we can do to keep happy is to find reason and purpose in every event, every decision, everything. Things have a funny way of working themselves out when you're least expecting it. Be patient, think things thru. Whatever happens, you know that you have people that love you regardless. Make sure you let those people know you appreciate them. The world is too big to try to conquer on your own.
May is a busy month, not just for me either, but for most people I think. I hope I can take my own advice: get outside, enjoy the day. Go do something that makes you happy. Get fro yo, and take the time to sit on a bench and eat it. Leisurely stroll through a park, or a cool place in town. People watch. Make your favorite food. Life can too easily pass us by. Try to remember to take a break once in a while.
I want everyone to feel happiness, even if for a moment today. I think we all deserve it.
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Have you had your moment of happiness today?
My last post, I talked about the "100 Happy Days" challenge and how I was starting it that day. 23 days and going strong on that. As each day has passed, it's made me think about some things.
One of my most confusing thoughts was this: You can find something every day that makes you happy. It could be big, it could be small, it could be an object, a thought, a good deed, something you witnessed, a choice you made... whatever it is, there is something every day that could make you feel happiness. However, if you are only happy for that moment that you experience that "happiness", does that count as a "happy" day? Does your 100 happy days have to encompass the entire 24 hour period? Is it an overall happiness, or a stolen moment here and there?
Having candidacy for my PhD program is a blessing and a curse, somedays. My position within the program is mostly stable, and now I'm working to get out in a desired amount of time. It's wonderful and terrifying at the same time, hoping I meet time constraints, making sure data is accumulated while being efficient... it's really made me question my work like I never have before. Chemistry has been a part of my life since I was 16. I'm 26 now... that's 10 years that I've wanted to be a chemist. Never have I "hated", "despised" or been "uninterested" in my project, in my work before. Was it because of my project and how it was progressing? Or was it something bigger? Am I really meant to be a chemist, or have I been fooling myself for too long, and just figured it out now that I'm closer to accomplishing my most recent goal?
Those thoughts got me into a funk... and so then the question of "am I actually happy today?" came into play, and was it affecting other parts of my life that I was happy with. And it really made me think of this "100 happy days"... was I being hypocritical, saying that I had 23 happy days so far, though most of the time I didn't feel happy except for some moments thru the day?
My conclusion: I think it's impossible to be completely content and happy for a full day, every day. You do what you can to be happy in all aspects of life. You do the best you can. You explore what makes you happy, and if the good outweigh the bad throughout the day, I'd call it a victory. Some days you'll fall off the happy wagon, and you just gotta hang on and pull yourself back on it. But without sadness, we couldn't appreciate happiness.
So, for those doing the "100 Happy Days", I'd say if you can find something that makes you smile, laugh, etc., then that's a happy day. Or that's how I'm looking at it. Ultimately, it's up to you.
P.S. for the record, I've figured out that I was unhappy with the progression of my project. I decided to just push through it, do what I can to work towards the finish, and see what happens. And what do you know, Monday, I finally grew some crystals... something that I've been trying since summer 2012.
Keep your head up. Spring is on its way. :) :) Soak in the Vitamin D, and smile. You're alive another day.
Until next time, loves.
One of my most confusing thoughts was this: You can find something every day that makes you happy. It could be big, it could be small, it could be an object, a thought, a good deed, something you witnessed, a choice you made... whatever it is, there is something every day that could make you feel happiness. However, if you are only happy for that moment that you experience that "happiness", does that count as a "happy" day? Does your 100 happy days have to encompass the entire 24 hour period? Is it an overall happiness, or a stolen moment here and there?
Having candidacy for my PhD program is a blessing and a curse, somedays. My position within the program is mostly stable, and now I'm working to get out in a desired amount of time. It's wonderful and terrifying at the same time, hoping I meet time constraints, making sure data is accumulated while being efficient... it's really made me question my work like I never have before. Chemistry has been a part of my life since I was 16. I'm 26 now... that's 10 years that I've wanted to be a chemist. Never have I "hated", "despised" or been "uninterested" in my project, in my work before. Was it because of my project and how it was progressing? Or was it something bigger? Am I really meant to be a chemist, or have I been fooling myself for too long, and just figured it out now that I'm closer to accomplishing my most recent goal?
Those thoughts got me into a funk... and so then the question of "am I actually happy today?" came into play, and was it affecting other parts of my life that I was happy with. And it really made me think of this "100 happy days"... was I being hypocritical, saying that I had 23 happy days so far, though most of the time I didn't feel happy except for some moments thru the day?
My conclusion: I think it's impossible to be completely content and happy for a full day, every day. You do what you can to be happy in all aspects of life. You do the best you can. You explore what makes you happy, and if the good outweigh the bad throughout the day, I'd call it a victory. Some days you'll fall off the happy wagon, and you just gotta hang on and pull yourself back on it. But without sadness, we couldn't appreciate happiness.
So, for those doing the "100 Happy Days", I'd say if you can find something that makes you smile, laugh, etc., then that's a happy day. Or that's how I'm looking at it. Ultimately, it's up to you.
P.S. for the record, I've figured out that I was unhappy with the progression of my project. I decided to just push through it, do what I can to work towards the finish, and see what happens. And what do you know, Monday, I finally grew some crystals... something that I've been trying since summer 2012.
Keep your head up. Spring is on its way. :) :) Soak in the Vitamin D, and smile. You're alive another day.
Until next time, loves.
Monday, March 17, 2014
100 Happy Days: Could you do it? Want to try it with me?
Hello blog world,
I've been slacking on posting. Please forgive me. It's difficult for me to sit still enough to write down something (or at least that's my excuse), but I will definitely try to be better at this. :)
So, I'm not sure if you've heard of this concept, but there is a website (shared below) that gives you the challenge of being happy for 100 straight days. 100 Happy Days Overall, what you do is you take a picture/write a status/etc., and it has to do with something that makes you happy. It could be big, it could be small. It doesn't matter, because it's what makes you happy. You document these happy things for 100 days straight... sounds easy right? Since we all know that everyday is wonderful and amazing and yada-yada. It sounds very difficult, but I always enjoy a challenge.
I've seen some of my friends attempt this, and I want to do the same. It follows the main reason I started this blog: to remind ourselves to be positive, to be happy, even if it seems the world is against us that minute, that day, that week. Whomever came up with this idea is brilliant, and I want to meet them.
So: I start my #100happydays today. Will you join me?
Monday, January 13, 2014
I yam what I yam... though I'm not a fan of yams... or sweet potatoes most of the time.
Sometimes, I wonder what life would be like if I was a different person, or had a different attitude, a different way of growing up, a different lifestyle... it's nice to daydream about it.
But then I come back to reality, and realize I am what I am, I am who I am, and I can't change (most of) that. There are some little things I am working on... but overall I'm pretty happy with who I am at this point in my life.
... and then, I came upon this list. (P.S. I LOVE lists. To-do lists, lists about characteristics, lists of favorite books, movies, sports, etc., grocery lists; I could go on for forever. Listing what kinds of lists I love. lol)
I have considered myself to have a Type A personality. I get it from my momma, though I'm not as hardcore as she is. But she's a boss, so I can't say anything bad about that either.
Some of the characteristics that are completely true:
But then I come back to reality, and realize I am what I am, I am who I am, and I can't change (most of) that. There are some little things I am working on... but overall I'm pretty happy with who I am at this point in my life.
... and then, I came upon this list. (P.S. I LOVE lists. To-do lists, lists about characteristics, lists of favorite books, movies, sports, etc., grocery lists; I could go on for forever. Listing what kinds of lists I love. lol)
I have considered myself to have a Type A personality. I get it from my momma, though I'm not as hardcore as she is. But she's a boss, so I can't say anything bad about that either.
Some of the characteristics that are completely true:
- You're highly conscientious.
- You frequently talk over and interrupt people.
- You have a hard time falling asleep at night.
- You put more energy into your career than your relationships.
- You have a low tolerance for incompetence.
- You'd be lost without your to-do list.
- You're sensitive to stress.
- You make it happen.
Soooooo... I know I pretty much just ruined over half of the article/list right there. But, still read it. I think it rings true to so many people.
While I can relate and see all these characteristics, there are many of these "character traits" that I need to rid from my personality. If it means becoming more of a Type A/B hybrid, so be it.
I have realized that I talk over people and interrupt people CONSTENTLY. I hate that I do that, but I haven't made a conscious effort to stop myself from being rude. That is one of my main resolutions this year. I know it comes from being impatient, and I need to slow things down.
I won't go through all these characteristics, because, let's be honest, no one really cares. If you know me, then you can see why I picked these. But. SERIOUSLY. Without a to-do list for daily tasks, weekly tasks, etc... I wouldn't remember to do about 83% of my things I want to get done. It's sad, but my memory just isn't what it once was. Maybe it's from smelling all those chemicals daily, or just thinking of too much. Thank goodness I like to make to-do lists.
Even though there are some Type A tendencies that are in a negative light, I do care a lot about my career, as well as the people in my life. It stresses me out sometimes, but I look at it that I'd rather care too much than not care at all. All I can do is try to not stress out as much, but still kick ass in life.
Do you consider yourself to have Type A tendencies? Are there any tendencies that speak to you more than others? Would you want to change any of these if you feel like you have these characteristics?
Overall, just try to be happy with yourself, where you are at this moment. It may all change tomorrow, but you'll figure that out when it happens. Live in the moment, and be happy doing it. I'm finally getting some pictures printed from Italy, and making my room a bit more homey. It's been a while since I've been able to do anything crafty. With that, and doing a little bit of Cincy photography coming up this weekend, I'm pretty excited for it all.
Have a wonderful week, and don't forget that Monday is now home to The Bachelor Season 18!!! OOOOOOOH JUAN PABLO. :)
Sunday, December 29, 2013
2013 coming to a close.
As the new year approaches, three things tend to happen:
1) People like to remember all the things they are thankful for, and look back on the year. Remember the wonderful times and people in their lives, all the difficulties they've had to overcome, wonder how the year is over, etc.
2) New Years Resolutions are being made. Whether it is a fitness goal/routine, trying new hobbies, keeping in touch with friends and family, or whatever other resolution it is, almost everyone I know is all making them. Now, it's not a bad thing by any means. Most people need some kind of event or reason to make a new habit. However, I know I cannot follow them to save my life if I make them a New Years Resolution, so I choose not to make them. If I want to make a decision, I just do it. (Again, that's just me, because I'm sick of failing to keep my New Years resolutions.)
3) Everyone gets football crazy. There's the end of the NFL season, as well as Bowl Week for college football. I personally love it, because there's usually at least one good game a day, and so I'm covered on the entertainment for the day.
2013 was definitely a whirlwind of a year, going even faster than the year before. I celebrated coming into the year with my best friends, passed my 2nd year talk, went through some soul searching after relationship issues, got re-energized by new friends and US Soccer, went home a lot in the spring to keep up with friends and March Madness, watched the Cards win the National Championship, spent two weeks in Italy, spent a wonderful summer all over, got to know a great new class of graduate students, reconnected, passed my candidacy exam, and so much more. This year has been full of ups and downs, but overall, I could not be happier with 2013 as a whole. I've learned a lot, and I know there is lots more to learn with the 2014 year approaching.
I can't wait to spend my last night in 2013 around some of my best friends, dancing, partying, living up my 25 years.
If you plan out New Years resolutions, make them so that you feel happy doing them. And if you stumble, don't feel bad. Just pick yourself up and try it again. That's how life is, just picking yourself back up if you get pushed down.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas, and an even better 2013. I wish nothing but happiness for everyone in the next year. :)
1) People like to remember all the things they are thankful for, and look back on the year. Remember the wonderful times and people in their lives, all the difficulties they've had to overcome, wonder how the year is over, etc.
2) New Years Resolutions are being made. Whether it is a fitness goal/routine, trying new hobbies, keeping in touch with friends and family, or whatever other resolution it is, almost everyone I know is all making them. Now, it's not a bad thing by any means. Most people need some kind of event or reason to make a new habit. However, I know I cannot follow them to save my life if I make them a New Years Resolution, so I choose not to make them. If I want to make a decision, I just do it. (Again, that's just me, because I'm sick of failing to keep my New Years resolutions.)
3) Everyone gets football crazy. There's the end of the NFL season, as well as Bowl Week for college football. I personally love it, because there's usually at least one good game a day, and so I'm covered on the entertainment for the day.
2013 was definitely a whirlwind of a year, going even faster than the year before. I celebrated coming into the year with my best friends, passed my 2nd year talk, went through some soul searching after relationship issues, got re-energized by new friends and US Soccer, went home a lot in the spring to keep up with friends and March Madness, watched the Cards win the National Championship, spent two weeks in Italy, spent a wonderful summer all over, got to know a great new class of graduate students, reconnected, passed my candidacy exam, and so much more. This year has been full of ups and downs, but overall, I could not be happier with 2013 as a whole. I've learned a lot, and I know there is lots more to learn with the 2014 year approaching.
I can't wait to spend my last night in 2013 around some of my best friends, dancing, partying, living up my 25 years.
If you plan out New Years resolutions, make them so that you feel happy doing them. And if you stumble, don't feel bad. Just pick yourself up and try it again. That's how life is, just picking yourself back up if you get pushed down.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas, and an even better 2013. I wish nothing but happiness for everyone in the next year. :)
Thursday, November 7, 2013
Streetcar, anyone?
Save the Streetcar!
In following my overall theme of positive thinking, I'm hoping that you all will help myself and Cincinnatians out with a teeny request. The public transit system here is pretty bad. The Metro bus system is slightly better than the TARC buses back in Louisville, and new routes will be more helpful. However, the city has twice voted for the building of a streetcar system in the Over-The-Rhine district. The new mayor-elect John Cranley wants to halt this project, and pay back the money to the Federal Government in order to "help balance the budget".
For all those who have never stepped foot in Cincinnati, or those who know very little about Cincinnati and some of its culture, there were many opportunities to have a great public transit system installed. A subway system in the early 20th century was in the process of being built. Due to WWI, then additional construction costs, the Great Depression and WWII, the project was discarded. You can still visit these abandoned subway tunnels with tours in OTR and from the Museum Center.
There was a streetcar system previously in Cincinnati in the 1890s, and it was dismantled in the 1950s. With the rise in popularity in the car adding on to this, urban flight increased dramatically. http://www.cincinnati-oh.gov/streetcar/background-benefits/ After 1950, less and less people lived in the actual city of Cincinnati and moved out to the suburbs.
The current public transit system, Metro, only travels to the Government Square area of downtown, and not many stops closer to the Riverfront, or in OTR. Buses are usually very crowded, and downtown itself has an enormous number of surface parking lots to accommodate for cars. This does not bring a lot of business to the downtown areas, and gives little room for prosperity.
The current streetcar system is based off the one currently in Portland, OR. The city spent $57 million on the system, and have made a profit of $1.6 billion. Um, hello? I think that's a pretty good amount of money that can be made and help revive Cincinnati, if this project continues.
The first route goes from the Banks downtown (in between the Reds and Bengals stadium) up to Findlay Market area in OTR. There are plans to also put down tracks up Vine Street to reach University of Cincinnati and the Uptown area (the Zoo, Children's Hospital, etc.). This will bring so much travel to downtown and OTR, and help bring prosperity to the parts of the city that need to keep growing. So many international students that study at UC have no mode of public transit to leave Clifton, and this streetcar could solve that.
The streetcar is necessary for the growth of Cincinnati. If for nothing else, please click on the link at the beginning of my post and sign the petition for me. I may not reap most of the benefits from the streetcar, but think of all those who can. I support light rail, and hope that our country overall will start moving to high speed and light rail over highway travel.
Keep our country progressing forward. Help Cincinnati keep progressing. I have come to love this city in the past 2.5 years of living here, and stopping this streetcar will do more harm than good.
In following my overall theme of positive thinking, I'm hoping that you all will help myself and Cincinnatians out with a teeny request. The public transit system here is pretty bad. The Metro bus system is slightly better than the TARC buses back in Louisville, and new routes will be more helpful. However, the city has twice voted for the building of a streetcar system in the Over-The-Rhine district. The new mayor-elect John Cranley wants to halt this project, and pay back the money to the Federal Government in order to "help balance the budget".
For all those who have never stepped foot in Cincinnati, or those who know very little about Cincinnati and some of its culture, there were many opportunities to have a great public transit system installed. A subway system in the early 20th century was in the process of being built. Due to WWI, then additional construction costs, the Great Depression and WWII, the project was discarded. You can still visit these abandoned subway tunnels with tours in OTR and from the Museum Center.
There was a streetcar system previously in Cincinnati in the 1890s, and it was dismantled in the 1950s. With the rise in popularity in the car adding on to this, urban flight increased dramatically. http://www.cincinnati-oh.gov/streetcar/background-benefits/ After 1950, less and less people lived in the actual city of Cincinnati and moved out to the suburbs.
The current public transit system, Metro, only travels to the Government Square area of downtown, and not many stops closer to the Riverfront, or in OTR. Buses are usually very crowded, and downtown itself has an enormous number of surface parking lots to accommodate for cars. This does not bring a lot of business to the downtown areas, and gives little room for prosperity.
The current streetcar system is based off the one currently in Portland, OR. The city spent $57 million on the system, and have made a profit of $1.6 billion. Um, hello? I think that's a pretty good amount of money that can be made and help revive Cincinnati, if this project continues.
The first route goes from the Banks downtown (in between the Reds and Bengals stadium) up to Findlay Market area in OTR. There are plans to also put down tracks up Vine Street to reach University of Cincinnati and the Uptown area (the Zoo, Children's Hospital, etc.). This will bring so much travel to downtown and OTR, and help bring prosperity to the parts of the city that need to keep growing. So many international students that study at UC have no mode of public transit to leave Clifton, and this streetcar could solve that.
The streetcar is necessary for the growth of Cincinnati. If for nothing else, please click on the link at the beginning of my post and sign the petition for me. I may not reap most of the benefits from the streetcar, but think of all those who can. I support light rail, and hope that our country overall will start moving to high speed and light rail over highway travel.
Keep our country progressing forward. Help Cincinnati keep progressing. I have come to love this city in the past 2.5 years of living here, and stopping this streetcar will do more harm than good.
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Yeah, after all this time, I'm still into you.
It's hard to believe that in 2003, the band Paramore was getting their start, and the lead singer, Hayley Williams, was the same age as me. BUT I STILL LOVE THEM, and their recent song "Still Into You". Listen to it.
Paramore - Still Into You
I like fun songs. They make me want to dance around the lab, in my room, in my car... wherever.
This song obviously is speaking about how the singer is still into "you", which is most likely another person/significant other. It's cute, and I like the song for that reason. You gotta love cute love songs.
However, I'm also going to put this song with my undying love for chemistry. I know that I always complain about how bad chemistry is, and how much I hate it. But with only 16 days until my candidacy exam, I can be honest with myself: I LOVE CHEMISTRY. and I'm still into it. For reals.
If I didn't still love chemistry, I wouldn't pull late nights and all nighters. I wouldn't be mad when the kids in my recitation just want to get an easy A, and doesn't care about how to arrow push or why a mechanism is the way it is. Why reactions happen theoretically but not entirely the same way in real conditions. I wouldn't be able to freak out and be calm at the same time while preparing for my big exam. It wouldn't matter why a reaction didn't work, even though I followed the protocol.
Chemistry is wonderful, and I want everyone to know it. Especially when it works, but that's beside the point. I want my PhD in chemistry, because I love the subject. Organic, biochemistry, analytical, inorganic, even physical... it's all fascinating how you can explain the world around you. How specific chemical reaction converts oxygen to carbon dioxide; how theory can be calculated and explain experimental results... it's all so fascinating.
So yes, chemistry, I'm still into you, after all this time.
(Come talk to me in 15 days and see if I've changed my tune)
Most of the other 3rd years in my program have been passing their candidacy exams, so let's hope this trend continues for when it comes to my talk. :) :)
Back to my photochemistry experiments!
Paramore - Still Into You
I like fun songs. They make me want to dance around the lab, in my room, in my car... wherever.
This song obviously is speaking about how the singer is still into "you", which is most likely another person/significant other. It's cute, and I like the song for that reason. You gotta love cute love songs.
However, I'm also going to put this song with my undying love for chemistry. I know that I always complain about how bad chemistry is, and how much I hate it. But with only 16 days until my candidacy exam, I can be honest with myself: I LOVE CHEMISTRY. and I'm still into it. For reals.
If I didn't still love chemistry, I wouldn't pull late nights and all nighters. I wouldn't be mad when the kids in my recitation just want to get an easy A, and doesn't care about how to arrow push or why a mechanism is the way it is. Why reactions happen theoretically but not entirely the same way in real conditions. I wouldn't be able to freak out and be calm at the same time while preparing for my big exam. It wouldn't matter why a reaction didn't work, even though I followed the protocol.
Chemistry is wonderful, and I want everyone to know it. Especially when it works, but that's beside the point. I want my PhD in chemistry, because I love the subject. Organic, biochemistry, analytical, inorganic, even physical... it's all fascinating how you can explain the world around you. How specific chemical reaction converts oxygen to carbon dioxide; how theory can be calculated and explain experimental results... it's all so fascinating.
So yes, chemistry, I'm still into you, after all this time.
(Come talk to me in 15 days and see if I've changed my tune)
Most of the other 3rd years in my program have been passing their candidacy exams, so let's hope this trend continues for when it comes to my talk. :) :)
Back to my photochemistry experiments!
Sunday, October 20, 2013
This one's for all my science boos out there.
One thing that I've learned through my life is that happiness is fleeting. Being in the science world, there are a few rare moments of happiness. You get a great result, you discover something new, some experiment tells you something you weren't expecting but it turns out that it's actually cooler than what you were originally studying... there are so many "moments" of happiness that you can achieve with science. However, those moments are over so quickly, before you are coming up with new experiments, new hypotheses, and the work that comes with all these new things from our "happy moments". Quite frankly, it gets exhausting rather quickly. And you never know when one of those happy moments will strike... whether it's tomorrow or 5 months from now. Frustrating. So. Frustrating.
Even when not doing experiments, writing journal articles to get published or a thesis/dissertation to get your MS/PhD... there is just an overall tone of frustration. Everything has to be PERFECT. You have to finish you research and publish it before competitors do, otherwise all that work is for nothing. Your figures have to grab the attention of the reviewer, of the reader. Making science interesting can be hard.
We scientists have so much to complain about. We sit in labs all day, running experiments, writing, reading, teaching. Sometimes these labs are really nice, sometimes they feel like dungeons. We complain about a bad day of data collection, about how our students in recitation don't listen to us when we are giving them what they need to know for the quiz they are about to take, about how our chemistry doesn't work... we complain pretty much everything. Misery loves company, and the company our misery keeps is each other.
... However, there is a way to battle this "science syndrome" though.
1) Go in every day trying to accomplish something. Even if the main thing you accomplish is cleaning your desk and making a workspace again, you did it. Use that as momentum for the next day. If you weren't able to repeat an experiment like you hoped, just get up the next day and try to remember that it is a NEW day. You can do it.
2) Try to think of happiness as a state of mind, instead of trying to find it in people, places or things. I know that I like to buy things to make me happy: shoes, clothing, fro-yo, sushi, etc. But as soon as the newness wears off, or it's gone, the happiness associated with it is gone. You can have memories of places you traveled, and the happiness you had when you were there experiencing the place, but it begins to fade the longer you are away. So why put a tag on happiness? Why not just try to be happy, with whatever you're doing, with whomever you are with, wherever you are. Just enjoy each and every moment you can. People say that only you can make yourself unhappy; it also goes the other way as well, only you can make yourself happy. So make yourself happy.
... that's all I have for now to combat frustrating times... but I'm living life one day at a time, trying to figure it out. That counts for something, right?
To all my friends who are going through qualifiers/defenses coming up: keep your head up, and keep plugging away. We will get stressed. We will get frustrated. We will be exhausted by the end. But we WILL get through this together. Instead of complaining about all the bad things that are upon us, let's build each other up to get ourselves through it.
This definitely has a theme in mind, but even if you are not a science person, or going through what I am, you can definitely try to apply this to your own lifestyle. It works for most things, just substitute some things here and there. You'll be okay... we'll all be okay. :)
Until later. Qualifying exam looms near... only 1 month and 1 day away. Pray to the chemistry gods for me, everyone. It's gonna be one hell of a month.
Monday, October 7, 2013
Overall, I just want to be successful.
With the weather changing, and the temperature dropping, we come upon the season of Pumpkin Spice Lattes, sweaters, boots, fires, hot chocolate, and blankets. I LOVE FALL. But there is something about fall that makes me want to forget about work, and just porch sit like crazy with a cup of freshly brewed coffee. Which is not beneficial to my production at school and getting ready for my third year talk... which is coming up in a month and a half. Yikes.
However, for our Life After Graduate School course, we took a tour of Givudan Flavors, just about 10 miles down the road from UC. Besides having a wonderful facility, and just being super cool in general, it reminded me that a job like that is the end game that I should be working toward with my work here in graduate school. For now, yes, the dissertation, papers, talks, etc. are all important (especially to continue on to get those things done), but that's not what I'm spending my entire 5 years trying to do. After my degree is done, I most likely won't ever look after this again. Which is slightly depressing, but encouraging at the same time.
But that tour helped to remind me what potential long-term goals I have for myself, and that I need to continue to work hard to get there. Talk about getting the push I needed to get motivated again. I want to get out of here with my PhD. That is the short term goal.
Long term, I want to be successful. In science. In relationships. In life, in general. And I think a lot of that comes with grad school, and making sure that I finish up strong. I want to make my life better, more comfortable. There a lot of things I want to accomplish, and I don't know everything yet I want to accomplish, but I need to get off my butt and get some work done.
Take a few minutes, and write down your goals that you want to accomplish. They could be for tomorrow, next month, next year, or long term goals. Once those goals are down, think about how you can accomplish those goals. Reward yourself once you reach your goals. Don't beat yourself up too much if you don't reach your goals; just make yourself work harder to reach the next one.
What is the main success that you want to accomplish in your lifetime?
However, for our Life After Graduate School course, we took a tour of Givudan Flavors, just about 10 miles down the road from UC. Besides having a wonderful facility, and just being super cool in general, it reminded me that a job like that is the end game that I should be working toward with my work here in graduate school. For now, yes, the dissertation, papers, talks, etc. are all important (especially to continue on to get those things done), but that's not what I'm spending my entire 5 years trying to do. After my degree is done, I most likely won't ever look after this again. Which is slightly depressing, but encouraging at the same time.
But that tour helped to remind me what potential long-term goals I have for myself, and that I need to continue to work hard to get there. Talk about getting the push I needed to get motivated again. I want to get out of here with my PhD. That is the short term goal.
Long term, I want to be successful. In science. In relationships. In life, in general. And I think a lot of that comes with grad school, and making sure that I finish up strong. I want to make my life better, more comfortable. There a lot of things I want to accomplish, and I don't know everything yet I want to accomplish, but I need to get off my butt and get some work done.
Take a few minutes, and write down your goals that you want to accomplish. They could be for tomorrow, next month, next year, or long term goals. Once those goals are down, think about how you can accomplish those goals. Reward yourself once you reach your goals. Don't beat yourself up too much if you don't reach your goals; just make yourself work harder to reach the next one.
What is the main success that you want to accomplish in your lifetime?
Friday, September 20, 2013
Even though it's raining outside, I still feel sunny and happy.
Read:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/09/16/happiness-habits-of-exuberant-human-beings_n_3909772.html
There are some very good tips in this article. See how many of these habits you do already, and see if you can change some of your old habits to these new ones. You never think about simple things making you happy, but those simple things are what makes life fun, and extraordinary.
The one about "trying to be happy"... I tell this to people all the time. It's amazing how easily you can turn your day around with one simple thing.
I'm about to head back to the scientific depths on my life, so until next time.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/09/16/happiness-habits-of-exuberant-human-beings_n_3909772.html
There are some very good tips in this article. See how many of these habits you do already, and see if you can change some of your old habits to these new ones. You never think about simple things making you happy, but those simple things are what makes life fun, and extraordinary.
The one about "trying to be happy"... I tell this to people all the time. It's amazing how easily you can turn your day around with one simple thing.
I'm about to head back to the scientific depths on my life, so until next time.
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
How to Continuously Stay Happy... or Something Like It
We're human beings. We are. We feel every range of emotions at any given time. We can be feeling down, and the next second, something happens and we feel happy. We could feel lonely, and then go to feeling content. It makes little sense, but that's life, right?
So how do we stay happy all the time? Continuously? Is that even possible?
The answer: we don't stay happy all the time. We can't stay continuously happy.
There is no possible to always feel good about life, about the people surrounding you, about your job, about your outlook on life, about your appearance. Happiness is a fleeting emotion. No one can keep it for every second. If you think you can, you are kidding yourself.
So that's the bad part, right? No one can continuously stay happy.
The good news: it's not expected for you to stay happy all the time.
The sooner we realize that simple fact, the sooner we can be content and happy for a longer time. We are not perfect. We might think we are expected to be, but we cannot be. Anyone who expects perfection out of themselves or out of other people are looking for answers they won't find.
Stop looking for perfection in every thing, every moment.
Let life happen. Try to live in the moment. Plan ahead, but be ready for roadblocks, detours and itinerary changes. Enjoy the people that come in and out of your life. Remember that life is what you make of it. Sometimes the sadness, loneliness, anger can lead to some of the happiest, most content and exciting moments.
If you can, forgive others, and forgive yourself. We're all human, we all live in the same world. I think it'd be better to enjoy it with others, don't you?
If you need to, be sad. Be lonely. It's okay. But overall, try to be content. Try to be happy. If only for a moment. You use more muscles in your face to frown than to smile. Remember that.
Here's to being happy... tomorrow. :)
So how do we stay happy all the time? Continuously? Is that even possible?
The answer: we don't stay happy all the time. We can't stay continuously happy.
There is no possible to always feel good about life, about the people surrounding you, about your job, about your outlook on life, about your appearance. Happiness is a fleeting emotion. No one can keep it for every second. If you think you can, you are kidding yourself.
So that's the bad part, right? No one can continuously stay happy.
The good news: it's not expected for you to stay happy all the time.
The sooner we realize that simple fact, the sooner we can be content and happy for a longer time. We are not perfect. We might think we are expected to be, but we cannot be. Anyone who expects perfection out of themselves or out of other people are looking for answers they won't find.
Stop looking for perfection in every thing, every moment.
Let life happen. Try to live in the moment. Plan ahead, but be ready for roadblocks, detours and itinerary changes. Enjoy the people that come in and out of your life. Remember that life is what you make of it. Sometimes the sadness, loneliness, anger can lead to some of the happiest, most content and exciting moments.
If you can, forgive others, and forgive yourself. We're all human, we all live in the same world. I think it'd be better to enjoy it with others, don't you?
If you need to, be sad. Be lonely. It's okay. But overall, try to be content. Try to be happy. If only for a moment. You use more muscles in your face to frown than to smile. Remember that.
Here's to being happy... tomorrow. :)
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
let me see beneath your beautiful tonight.
Everyone has something that inspires them to something creative. I know I'm not entirely the most creative person, especially when it comes to writing. But when I'm in a certain mood, and I hear just the right song, it just clicks and inspiration comes. This time, Labrinth's "Beneath Your Beautiful" is my muse for this post.
There are so many times that we, as humans, do not think we are good enough as we are. We must wear pounds of makeup for that perfect complexion. We tan like crazy so we don't look like pale ghosts (for those who do not have the beach in the neighborhood and get that natural sun). We post everything fun we ever do on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, social media etc. (Guilty as charged.), just so we think that other people think that we are cool, fun, whatever adjective you want to throw in there.
We are all so worried about what other people think about us. We want to be accepted by people so badly, we sometimes do things that aren't really "us". We conform to what we think people want from us. We lose our true self in the process. Others thoughts are more important than happiness sometimes.
And we are worried about what we think of ourselves. Are we actually happy with who we are? Is that where the real problem is, and we think instead that we are making this "new identity" of ourselves for others, just to make ourselves feel better?
I know I've had my fair share of times feeling down, not liking who I was (aka emo JenVern... high school, man, it was "rough"). There are days where I question who I am, what I'm doing with my life.
But then I remember that I have purpose, that I am where I want to be. There is always growing to be had, but overall, I'm pretty content with where I am. I know, deep down, who I want to be, and that's all that matters to me. I just need to remember that, and not let the haterzzz get me down. You all need to remember that too.
Are you content with who you are, where you are in life? If not, only you can do something about it. Write down goals for personal life, emotional life, work life, and any other goal you want to achieve to get you to where you want to be... and then start taking those baby steps towards them.
Family, friends, significant others want to see the real you. I think we all see glimpses of our real selves, of other people, who they really are. I think we could all use time to show who we really are, to our loved ones, to ourselves, every once in a while. I think we all know a piece of what is hidden, and it really is a beautiful person.
For 5 minutes a day, just don't worry about what people think of you, of your goals, of your life. And just revel in the fact that you are you. You are wonderful. You are working on your life. You are working on being content. You are working on yourself. And you are worth it.
Anytime you (or myself) may feel down, I hope you find this comforting. And refreshing... and able to get you back on the bumpy road that is life. Life is a beautiful thing, go explore it with those you love.
... and if you haven't listened to that song, DO IT. Lots of piano, wonderful harmonies. Great song.
There are so many times that we, as humans, do not think we are good enough as we are. We must wear pounds of makeup for that perfect complexion. We tan like crazy so we don't look like pale ghosts (for those who do not have the beach in the neighborhood and get that natural sun). We post everything fun we ever do on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, social media etc. (Guilty as charged.), just so we think that other people think that we are cool, fun, whatever adjective you want to throw in there.
We are all so worried about what other people think about us. We want to be accepted by people so badly, we sometimes do things that aren't really "us". We conform to what we think people want from us. We lose our true self in the process. Others thoughts are more important than happiness sometimes.
And we are worried about what we think of ourselves. Are we actually happy with who we are? Is that where the real problem is, and we think instead that we are making this "new identity" of ourselves for others, just to make ourselves feel better?
I know I've had my fair share of times feeling down, not liking who I was (aka emo JenVern... high school, man, it was "rough"). There are days where I question who I am, what I'm doing with my life.
But then I remember that I have purpose, that I am where I want to be. There is always growing to be had, but overall, I'm pretty content with where I am. I know, deep down, who I want to be, and that's all that matters to me. I just need to remember that, and not let the haterzzz get me down. You all need to remember that too.
Are you content with who you are, where you are in life? If not, only you can do something about it. Write down goals for personal life, emotional life, work life, and any other goal you want to achieve to get you to where you want to be... and then start taking those baby steps towards them.
Family, friends, significant others want to see the real you. I think we all see glimpses of our real selves, of other people, who they really are. I think we could all use time to show who we really are, to our loved ones, to ourselves, every once in a while. I think we all know a piece of what is hidden, and it really is a beautiful person.
For 5 minutes a day, just don't worry about what people think of you, of your goals, of your life. And just revel in the fact that you are you. You are wonderful. You are working on your life. You are working on being content. You are working on yourself. And you are worth it.
Anytime you (or myself) may feel down, I hope you find this comforting. And refreshing... and able to get you back on the bumpy road that is life. Life is a beautiful thing, go explore it with those you love.
... and if you haven't listened to that song, DO IT. Lots of piano, wonderful harmonies. Great song.
Sunday, June 23, 2013
We could all use a little pick-me-up every once in a while.
I'm currently sitting in my lab, door closed (screw the fire hazard), and semi-blaring music while I'm doing a few hours of work. Maybe because it's Sunday, or it's been a busy last few weeks, or something... but for some reason I'm in the mood for reflection and questioning.
Or maybe it's the fact that I'm post-vacation, and I miss it? Perhaps. Italy Vernia Family Vacay was fantastic, and just what I needed: two weeks away from school, stress, responsibility. I could eat all the pasta I wanted, drink all the wine and cappuccinos my heart desired... and I did. It was beautiful weather in a beautiful place. Got to hike one day in Cinque Terre, and take in the architecture the rest of the vacation. Perfect two weeks away. Wish I could have stayed for longer and explored Florence longer, but such is life. We all have to come back to reality at some point.
But coming back wasn't all that bad either. Research is being semi-nice for once, and it may continue to be nice (but get a lot busier... not necessarily a bad thing). But now that I am off my vacation high, and it's back to the real world, being in lab also makes me introspective.
Call it boredom, call it "being in the dumps", call it sadness... actually, don't call it any of that. I'm not sure exactly what it is, but it's not just one emotion, and it's not really sadness. Things are changing around me, and I don't think I'm on the same pace that change is happening. That's why I think I'm slightly freaking out about it.
I start teaching next week, which gives me a lot more to do. Picking back up CGSA duties, teaching, getting back into full-time researching, trying to workout and stay healthy, have social time... it feels like it's the school year again. Though there aren't as many students, which is always a nice break during the summer. But this summer is going to fly by... which is the the scariest thing to think about.
The fall brings the beginning of the 3rd year of my PhD program, which leads to the candidacy talk... the dreaded 3rd year talk... the make or break talk. While I'm not as stressed as I should be about it, it's hard not to think about the impending doom that comes with it. Every conversation at school mentions research, or how the talk is going to be terrible, etc. etc.
So with that, and a feeling of slight loneliness, it gives me weird feelings. Like I need a pick-me-up or something. I had pizza (nom nom) this weekend, and had a wonderful Friday with friends. But the thing that has always gotten me back into a groove is music. One of my favorite people who can put a smile on my face and joy in my heart is Andrew McMahon. Never heard of him? Don't worry, you have now.
Pianist and lead vocals for Something Corporate and Jack's Mannequin, he is now doing a solo act. So: if you need some music to check out, albums include:
Leaving Through the Window and North - Something Corporate
Everything in Transit, The Glass Passenger, and People and Things (as well as Dear Jack EP) - Jack's Mannequin
The Pop Underground - Andrew McMahon
Just something about the piano gets me in a good mood every time. It brings me back to a simpler time when I use to take piano lessons, and the worst thing that could happen was actually having to practice. But whenever I listen to his music (especially Everything in Transit straight through), it's like I took a Vitamin D pill, and I'm drinking homemade strawberry lemonade, porch sitting on my porch swing and flowers are blooming around me.
I know we all have that one thing that just brightens our day. Mine happens to be Andrew McMahon. What's yours?
I think between my dear friend Andrew, exercising this week, NKOTB/98 Degrees/Boyz II Men, and getting back in my routine, I'll be back into my sunshiney world... while I sit in my darkened wet lab. :)
Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend, and are staying cool. It's getting hot out there, and we need to keep hydrated. Have a great summer (to those that get something like it).
Or maybe it's the fact that I'm post-vacation, and I miss it? Perhaps. Italy Vernia Family Vacay was fantastic, and just what I needed: two weeks away from school, stress, responsibility. I could eat all the pasta I wanted, drink all the wine and cappuccinos my heart desired... and I did. It was beautiful weather in a beautiful place. Got to hike one day in Cinque Terre, and take in the architecture the rest of the vacation. Perfect two weeks away. Wish I could have stayed for longer and explored Florence longer, but such is life. We all have to come back to reality at some point.
But coming back wasn't all that bad either. Research is being semi-nice for once, and it may continue to be nice (but get a lot busier... not necessarily a bad thing). But now that I am off my vacation high, and it's back to the real world, being in lab also makes me introspective.
Call it boredom, call it "being in the dumps", call it sadness... actually, don't call it any of that. I'm not sure exactly what it is, but it's not just one emotion, and it's not really sadness. Things are changing around me, and I don't think I'm on the same pace that change is happening. That's why I think I'm slightly freaking out about it.
I start teaching next week, which gives me a lot more to do. Picking back up CGSA duties, teaching, getting back into full-time researching, trying to workout and stay healthy, have social time... it feels like it's the school year again. Though there aren't as many students, which is always a nice break during the summer. But this summer is going to fly by... which is the the scariest thing to think about.
The fall brings the beginning of the 3rd year of my PhD program, which leads to the candidacy talk... the dreaded 3rd year talk... the make or break talk. While I'm not as stressed as I should be about it, it's hard not to think about the impending doom that comes with it. Every conversation at school mentions research, or how the talk is going to be terrible, etc. etc.
So with that, and a feeling of slight loneliness, it gives me weird feelings. Like I need a pick-me-up or something. I had pizza (nom nom) this weekend, and had a wonderful Friday with friends. But the thing that has always gotten me back into a groove is music. One of my favorite people who can put a smile on my face and joy in my heart is Andrew McMahon. Never heard of him? Don't worry, you have now.
Pianist and lead vocals for Something Corporate and Jack's Mannequin, he is now doing a solo act. So: if you need some music to check out, albums include:
Leaving Through the Window and North - Something Corporate
Everything in Transit, The Glass Passenger, and People and Things (as well as Dear Jack EP) - Jack's Mannequin
The Pop Underground - Andrew McMahon
Just something about the piano gets me in a good mood every time. It brings me back to a simpler time when I use to take piano lessons, and the worst thing that could happen was actually having to practice. But whenever I listen to his music (especially Everything in Transit straight through), it's like I took a Vitamin D pill, and I'm drinking homemade strawberry lemonade, porch sitting on my porch swing and flowers are blooming around me.
I know we all have that one thing that just brightens our day. Mine happens to be Andrew McMahon. What's yours?
I think between my dear friend Andrew, exercising this week, NKOTB/98 Degrees/Boyz II Men, and getting back in my routine, I'll be back into my sunshiney world... while I sit in my darkened wet lab. :)
Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend, and are staying cool. It's getting hot out there, and we need to keep hydrated. Have a great summer (to those that get something like it).
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Wait, what do you mean I only have 20 followers on Twitter?
To follow up with the last blog post of "15 Things You Should Give Up to Be Happy", there's an article I found (again on facebook, get off it) that I enjoyed going through. It's a little bit shorter, a little bit more sarcastic, but still very very true. 32 Thoughts You Should Stop Caring About
In this "article", they talk about things that we really shouldn't care about (such as #4, what the people you don't like are posting on their Facebook statuses, or #8, the opinions of people who a) will never like you and b) have absolutely no bearing on your life) to things that are a little bit more fun to joke about (#21, how many followers you have on Twitter, or #25, eating salads on dates (can I get a burger wrapped in bacon, please?)), yet we still care about them.
Why is it that we do care about these things? Yes, some are worries that we have because of low self-worth/self-esteem, or trying to figure out what our path in life is really supposed to be (have we found it yet, are we even going in the right direction, wait, how old am I?). We all have worries, but most of them we really shouldn't worry about.
This complied list really brings forward what kind of things we wonder and think about, and ultimately worry about. The funny thing is, most of these things really shouldn't matter. It makes me remember to take a step back, breathe, and really think about what is important in our lives.
Is it what Kim Khardashian and Kanye West are doing every second? (yes, duh.) Is it what people might think of the dress you are wearing when going out to a bar with your friends for a girls night? (obviously, where have you been?) Is it being the only single one in your group of friends? (OH GOD KILL ME BEFORE THAT HAPPENS)
No, it's the things that we perceive to be a huge deal, when in the grand scheme of life, they aren't at all. We forget that these little things (while we need to treasure the good ones) can ultimately cause so much more stress in our life than we need.
There are going to be people that don't like you. You can't change that, as much as you would like to. There are going to be people who are thinner, better dressed, better spoken than you, but that's just how genetics works. You can only do the best with what you are given, and the sooner you learn to love it, the happier you will be.
And this isn't just about immediate happiness, it's more about overall and longlasting contentness. (Is that a word? It is now...) Once we stop caring about the little things that don't really impact our lives at all, we can actually start being happy (and worrying about the things that do impact our lives, like disease, poverty, etc.)
Does this mean that we're not going to worry about these little things? OF COURSE NOT. I know for a fact that I still worry about the little things A LOT. But, if we can just all take a breath once in a while, and forget about it for a bit, I think it could help us all out immensely.
Have a wonderful day, and weekend, people. I'm about to go on vacation for two weeks to gorge myself with fine Italian pasta, cappuccino and wine, so sorry if I go off the grid for a bit. Holla, and maybe just stop sweating the small stuff, yeah? :)
In this "article", they talk about things that we really shouldn't care about (such as #4, what the people you don't like are posting on their Facebook statuses, or #8, the opinions of people who a) will never like you and b) have absolutely no bearing on your life) to things that are a little bit more fun to joke about (#21, how many followers you have on Twitter, or #25, eating salads on dates (can I get a burger wrapped in bacon, please?)), yet we still care about them.
Why is it that we do care about these things? Yes, some are worries that we have because of low self-worth/self-esteem, or trying to figure out what our path in life is really supposed to be (have we found it yet, are we even going in the right direction, wait, how old am I?). We all have worries, but most of them we really shouldn't worry about.
This complied list really brings forward what kind of things we wonder and think about, and ultimately worry about. The funny thing is, most of these things really shouldn't matter. It makes me remember to take a step back, breathe, and really think about what is important in our lives.
Is it what Kim Khardashian and Kanye West are doing every second? (yes, duh.) Is it what people might think of the dress you are wearing when going out to a bar with your friends for a girls night? (obviously, where have you been?) Is it being the only single one in your group of friends? (OH GOD KILL ME BEFORE THAT HAPPENS)
No, it's the things that we perceive to be a huge deal, when in the grand scheme of life, they aren't at all. We forget that these little things (while we need to treasure the good ones) can ultimately cause so much more stress in our life than we need.
There are going to be people that don't like you. You can't change that, as much as you would like to. There are going to be people who are thinner, better dressed, better spoken than you, but that's just how genetics works. You can only do the best with what you are given, and the sooner you learn to love it, the happier you will be.
And this isn't just about immediate happiness, it's more about overall and longlasting contentness. (Is that a word? It is now...) Once we stop caring about the little things that don't really impact our lives at all, we can actually start being happy (and worrying about the things that do impact our lives, like disease, poverty, etc.)
Does this mean that we're not going to worry about these little things? OF COURSE NOT. I know for a fact that I still worry about the little things A LOT. But, if we can just all take a breath once in a while, and forget about it for a bit, I think it could help us all out immensely.
Have a wonderful day, and weekend, people. I'm about to go on vacation for two weeks to gorge myself with fine Italian pasta, cappuccino and wine, so sorry if I go off the grid for a bit. Holla, and maybe just stop sweating the small stuff, yeah? :)
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
and I hope you find it, you just want to take a faster ride, lower lows, higher highs.
There's an article I found online that I really enjoyed reading: 15 Things You Should Give Up To Be Happy. I know I'm always trying to endorse positive thinking and happiness, and as I was going through this article, a lot of things rang true.
Things that I have done to try to be happy since I've gained this attitude after travelling to New Zealand:
1. Give up your need to always be right. It's hard, because I like to think I'm right a lot, especially when I know a lot about certain subjects. However, I've found that there are other people like that as well. And while it's nice to be right, that good feeling goes away in about 0.4 seconds. So what's the point of always needing to be right? Just go with it.
8. Give up your need to impress others. Yes, there will be instances where you need to try to impress other people (for example, a job interview). However, and this is obviously still a work in progress, I've definitely tried to be comfortable in my own skin, and just be myself. If people aren't impressed with that, then obviously they didn't need to be in my life. The friends and family I have are so great and have always been so encouraging in whatever I've wanted to do... those are the only people I need in my life.
Things that I need to do/continue to do better to do these to be happy:
2. Give up your need for control. This is always so hard for me to do. I am definitely my mother's daughter, and her nickname is Captain-Commander. Not by coincidence, but because she wants to have control over every aspect in her life. I am very similar, but since getting to grad school, I'm slowly loosing the reins on that. Things are going to work, or they are not, and most of the time you can't control that. The only thing you get from trying to be in control is stress. Everything happens for a reason, but it's less stressful to let them happen, and then deal with what comes next.
6. Give up complaining. Too many times, I complain about the littlest of things. I guess we're all wishing for something better, that something better is out there, and want that. So we complain about the things we have now, even when they're great. I know I have to go back, reflect, regroup and remember to enjoy what I have in my life, since it definitely could be worse.
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Ultimately, you are in charge of your own destiny and happiness. The guide above definitely can help you if you're in a rut in how to be happy. Happiness happens from moment to moment, and sometimes you have to work at it. But it's just part of an amazing journey that is called your life.
Are there things that you need to work on from this list? Goodness knows I have a lot to still work on, but it can happen over time. It doesn't have to all fall into place right now.
Go enjoy this beautiful spring weather, people. Go to a baseball game, for a walk in the park, read a book on the porch with a good cup of coffee. Do what you enjoy with people you enjoy. That's a pretty easy way to be happy, I think.
Stay positive, and until next time.
Things that I have done to try to be happy since I've gained this attitude after travelling to New Zealand:
1. Give up your need to always be right. It's hard, because I like to think I'm right a lot, especially when I know a lot about certain subjects. However, I've found that there are other people like that as well. And while it's nice to be right, that good feeling goes away in about 0.4 seconds. So what's the point of always needing to be right? Just go with it.
8. Give up your need to impress others. Yes, there will be instances where you need to try to impress other people (for example, a job interview). However, and this is obviously still a work in progress, I've definitely tried to be comfortable in my own skin, and just be myself. If people aren't impressed with that, then obviously they didn't need to be in my life. The friends and family I have are so great and have always been so encouraging in whatever I've wanted to do... those are the only people I need in my life.
Things that I need to do/continue to do better to do these to be happy:
2. Give up your need for control. This is always so hard for me to do. I am definitely my mother's daughter, and her nickname is Captain-Commander. Not by coincidence, but because she wants to have control over every aspect in her life. I am very similar, but since getting to grad school, I'm slowly loosing the reins on that. Things are going to work, or they are not, and most of the time you can't control that. The only thing you get from trying to be in control is stress. Everything happens for a reason, but it's less stressful to let them happen, and then deal with what comes next.
6. Give up complaining. Too many times, I complain about the littlest of things. I guess we're all wishing for something better, that something better is out there, and want that. So we complain about the things we have now, even when they're great. I know I have to go back, reflect, regroup and remember to enjoy what I have in my life, since it definitely could be worse.
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Ultimately, you are in charge of your own destiny and happiness. The guide above definitely can help you if you're in a rut in how to be happy. Happiness happens from moment to moment, and sometimes you have to work at it. But it's just part of an amazing journey that is called your life.
Are there things that you need to work on from this list? Goodness knows I have a lot to still work on, but it can happen over time. It doesn't have to all fall into place right now.
Go enjoy this beautiful spring weather, people. Go to a baseball game, for a walk in the park, read a book on the porch with a good cup of coffee. Do what you enjoy with people you enjoy. That's a pretty easy way to be happy, I think.
Stay positive, and until next time.
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
A little bit of everything, I guess.
So much has happened the past few weeks, yet I never take time to put what I've felt from it into words. Tonight, with the thunder and lightning, and Justin Timberlake's Mirrors (It's better if you listen along too) playing in the background, I thought it'd the perfect way to clear my mind before bed. Yoga helps, but that was a few hours ago, and I'll take nature's open opportunity.
First off, I know that this may not be a big deal for some people, but the Louisville Cardinals won the 2013 National Championship. Honestly, words cannot express the joy I felt from that. This team this year had so many storylines, from Gorgui, Peyton, Russ, Kevin, Chane, Luke... there has never been a team that I've watched that I wanted them to win so badly. (Granted I felt terrible for Preston Knowles when he went out injured in 2011, but that's a different story) So having this team finish it out, especially after Kevin's injury, was so fantastic. I got to celebrate with my friends in Louisville, and with Cardinal fans all over the city. We've been waiting since 1986 to celebrate, and we were finally able to. Louisville First, Cardinals Forever.
Now: I know most everyone has heard of the explosions in Boston during the marathon. I was so appalled at the fact that it happened, and then I remembered that there were people there that I cared about, as one of my best friend's family lives up there. Luckily for her and us, everyone is okay. Her father is a firefighter, and was probably extremely busy. But it is people like him, like the policemen, and volunteers that stepped up and help control the situation, those are people that we sometimes forget to appreciate. I'm happy we have them, and I'm very happy that the people I know are also safe. Definitely thoughts are in Boston.
One thing I found online just about 20 minutes ago is this Dove YouTube video: Dove Beauty Sketches If you haven't seen it, I suggest you definitely do. We also forget our beauty, and tend to focus on negative aspects (like how I keep finding white hairs here and there lol). I don't want to spoil the video, but I definitely cried watching it. Just seeing how surprised people were... Just try to remember that you are a beautiful people, and you may just forget what other people see as your beauty. Make sure to revisit it, to help you be content.
I'm sorry this post has been a bit disjointed, but I feel like I've had a lot on my mind. Emotions are swirling, and I've probably cried more in the past 2 weeks than I have in the past 2 months. Not from sadness, but just letting all emotions come out and not holding them in. It's been refreshing, to say the least.
I usually also hate rain, thunderstorms, bad weather... but there's something refreshing that comes with a good rainstorm. It's a fresh start... we could all use that from time to time.
I'll stop rambling. But maybe I can sleep a bit better tonight. Just remember, tomorrow is a new day, so go make it great.
First off, I know that this may not be a big deal for some people, but the Louisville Cardinals won the 2013 National Championship. Honestly, words cannot express the joy I felt from that. This team this year had so many storylines, from Gorgui, Peyton, Russ, Kevin, Chane, Luke... there has never been a team that I've watched that I wanted them to win so badly. (Granted I felt terrible for Preston Knowles when he went out injured in 2011, but that's a different story) So having this team finish it out, especially after Kevin's injury, was so fantastic. I got to celebrate with my friends in Louisville, and with Cardinal fans all over the city. We've been waiting since 1986 to celebrate, and we were finally able to. Louisville First, Cardinals Forever.
Now: I know most everyone has heard of the explosions in Boston during the marathon. I was so appalled at the fact that it happened, and then I remembered that there were people there that I cared about, as one of my best friend's family lives up there. Luckily for her and us, everyone is okay. Her father is a firefighter, and was probably extremely busy. But it is people like him, like the policemen, and volunteers that stepped up and help control the situation, those are people that we sometimes forget to appreciate. I'm happy we have them, and I'm very happy that the people I know are also safe. Definitely thoughts are in Boston.
One thing I found online just about 20 minutes ago is this Dove YouTube video: Dove Beauty Sketches If you haven't seen it, I suggest you definitely do. We also forget our beauty, and tend to focus on negative aspects (like how I keep finding white hairs here and there lol). I don't want to spoil the video, but I definitely cried watching it. Just seeing how surprised people were... Just try to remember that you are a beautiful people, and you may just forget what other people see as your beauty. Make sure to revisit it, to help you be content.
I'm sorry this post has been a bit disjointed, but I feel like I've had a lot on my mind. Emotions are swirling, and I've probably cried more in the past 2 weeks than I have in the past 2 months. Not from sadness, but just letting all emotions come out and not holding them in. It's been refreshing, to say the least.
I usually also hate rain, thunderstorms, bad weather... but there's something refreshing that comes with a good rainstorm. It's a fresh start... we could all use that from time to time.
I'll stop rambling. But maybe I can sleep a bit better tonight. Just remember, tomorrow is a new day, so go make it great.
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