Tuesday, July 30, 2013

let me see beneath your beautiful tonight.

Everyone has something that inspires them to something creative. I know I'm not entirely the most creative person, especially when it comes to writing. But when I'm in a certain mood, and I hear just the right song, it just clicks and inspiration comes. This time, Labrinth's "Beneath Your Beautiful" is my muse for this post.

There are so many times that we, as humans, do not think we are good enough as we are. We must wear pounds of makeup for that perfect complexion. We tan like crazy so we don't look like pale ghosts (for those who do not have the beach in the neighborhood and get that natural sun). We post everything fun we ever do on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, social media etc. (Guilty as charged.), just so we think that other people think that we are cool, fun, whatever adjective you want to throw in there.

We are all so worried about what other people think about us. We want to be accepted by people so badly, we sometimes do things that aren't really "us". We conform to what we think people want from us. We lose our true self in the process. Others thoughts are more important than happiness sometimes.

And we are worried about what we think of ourselves. Are we actually happy with who we are? Is that where the real problem is, and we think instead that we are making this "new identity" of ourselves for others, just to make ourselves feel better?

I know I've had my fair share of times feeling down, not liking who I was (aka emo JenVern... high school, man, it was "rough"). There are days where I question who I am, what I'm doing with my life.

But then I remember that I have purpose, that I am where I want to be. There is always growing to be had, but overall, I'm pretty content with where I am. I know, deep down, who I want to be, and that's all that matters to me. I just need to remember that, and not let the haterzzz get me down. You all need to remember that too.

Are you content with who you are, where you are in life? If not, only you can do something about it. Write down goals for personal life, emotional life, work life, and any other goal you want to achieve to get you to where you want to be... and then start taking those baby steps towards them.

Family, friends, significant others want to see the real you. I think we all see glimpses of our real selves, of other people, who they really are. I think we could all use time to show who we really are, to our loved ones, to ourselves, every once in a while. I think we all know a piece of what is hidden, and it really is a beautiful person.

For 5 minutes a day, just don't worry about what people think of you, of your goals, of your life. And just revel in the fact that you are you. You are wonderful. You are working on your life. You are working on being content. You are working on yourself. And you are worth it.

Anytime you (or myself) may feel down, I hope you find this comforting. And refreshing... and able to get you back on the bumpy road that is life. Life is a beautiful thing, go explore it with those you love.

... and if you haven't listened to that song, DO IT. Lots of piano, wonderful harmonies. Great song.